Friday, October 16, 2009

Glorify G-D in adult movie business

I want to dedicate this posting to MK, Maggie and Kelly, who I meet on website of Raving Athiest. MK, have I learned very much from thoughtful comment you have given on website of Raving Athiest, and Maggie, am feeling that maybe we are almost like friends, if not the case that I live in Russia and you live in the America. Kelly, do I not know you very good yet, but I think you use such beautiful image to tell about your faith.

You all ask me, how can Eastern Orthodox Christian do the porn and the inciting of the lust? Have I never be thinking about such question so much, so I sit down and write very carefully my thoughts that you stimulated me.

First, the porn is important way of keeping men on moral path. Am thinking you know that the men, good Christian man even, they lust after woman (the lusting of the men after th other men, like Ted Haggard, I think is found mostly among protestant heretic, but never with true Christian). But is very dangerous for Christian man, to go to prostitute, no? "For by means of a whorish woman a man is brought to a piece of bread" (Proverbs 6: 26), Maggie, this just manner of speaking, no? Does not mean that you should do sandwich with Christian men (do not worry, I am having the tongue between the cheeks for saying this). Also, if the Christian man married, is especially bad because the adultery also a sin: "Ye have heard that it was said by them of old time, Thou shalt not commit adultery: But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart." (Matthew 5:27-28). So even to look at other woman is already sin! And very often also this can cause disease and death for Christian man, because "the adultress will hunt for the precious life" (Proverbs 6:26).

So what to do? The porn, especially if beautiful porn I think, is good solution, because sexy behaviours is put on film for looking at by the men. So the men they see the actors do the sex and they must not covet neighbor's wife, yes? Also, beautiful porn often show things which are not allowed, like the man-on-man or the doing it from the behind. I will say no more, but if you look at movies I am in, you see many such thing! If they see in porn, this is way for them to rid of such fantasies and keep own sex life virtuous and healthy, I think.

Also for the actress this is good arrangement, because the men, they only see character which she acts, and this character not her real person, is just invented person in movie! So man does not lust after real person, and actress not lusted after by the strange men. So porn I think is good way for Christian man to "take fire in his bosom, and his clothes not be burned" (Proverbs 6:27).

But you say that do I sound very proud of this occupation which I work, and this I think true. Am proud for doing good job, because everyone must find place in life and do best he can, "as God hath distributed to every man, as the Lord hath called every one, so let him walk" (1 Corinthians 7:17).

Finally, for me, the porn very beautiful and enjoying. Was inspired to become porn actress through beautiful Song of Songs. When I study this beautiful part of divinely inspired Holy Bible, I finally understanded that there someting was missing in my life and my love for the Jesus and G-D. I was "a spring shut up, a fountain sealed" (Song of Solomon 4:12). And I wanted to be "in his eyes as one that found favour" (Song of Solomon 8:10), Maggie, "in his eyes", this just manner of speaking, does mean that I want for men to look at my body, not that I want to be inside of the eyes, no? You say my body is temple, and I think this exactly right, because the men, they can worship the beauty that is gift from G-D. My acting, for me it is personal way to "glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's" (1 Corinthians 6:20). When I join adult movie business, I feel as ""a wall, and my breasts like towers" (Song of Solomon 8:10).

I think is forbidden only one kind of porn, which is old-style porn like people use to look at in Medievil Age (many so-call "Christian" painter produce such images, Hieronymous Bosch, if you want example). Because I think porn with the violence or the resising of the woman or the non-consensual, the Lord tells us that this we must not do: “Are ye polluted after the manner of your fathers? and commit ye whoredom after their abominations?" (Ezekiel 20:30). Such adult movies with violence, this I have never done again after I accept Jesus as personal savior. Old movies of such kind, if you still find, please I want you to know, am very ashamed.

Finally, acting in adult movie business for me is position of missionary. My producer, director, the other actors, they are all good Christians, go to local church, they do the tithing, they pray. Sometimes am a little sad, because many of them do not want to heal schism between Eastern orthodoxy and Roman catholic. Many of them say pope has not Primacy, but is just first among the equals. But I study hard the Christian philosophy and show them the full divinity of Jesus is surely true, and pope is direct representative of the Jesus, so how he can be our equal. So in a way is good for me to work in this line for second reason: To teach my brothers and sisters in Christ about one true faith.

I hope this explain the way I try to serve the Lord. Is not perfect, because am I only human being and still must I learn very much about the Jesus and the G-D and holy Ghost.


  1. pornolily,
    i very much desire to see you in movie where sexual scenes from the BIBLE are acted out in graphic details. i would buy two copies and donate one to my local library.

  2. I have read that when food was rationed during WWII in Britain (and probably in other countries, as well), that many children grew up having only eaten margarine and tinned vegetables.When the war was finally over and butter and fresh vegetables became available again, those many teenagers and young adults did not like them and actually prefered the substitute to the real thing. Pornography and all misuse of sex is like that. Those who indulge in it lose the ability to have real relationships and may very well lose the ability to want to have real relationships.

    Your reading of the Song of Songs is greatly diminished by your belief that it is somehow dirty and not a description of the passion of two souls committed to one another. Sex is more than the meeting of body parts.

    love, Maggie

  3. Maggie,

    Beautifully said.


    There simply is NO rationalizatin for using your body in a profane way. Enabling men to view you as an object, or any woman as an object, is degrading to all women. And demoralizing to men.

    If you believe in God, you believe in demons. If you believe in demons, then you can be sure they are sharing a high five over your abiity to turn an evil into an "apparent" good.

    In the Old Testament, God treats His people like small children, incrementally gaining their trust...rewarding them with the equivalent of cookies for following the "house" rules, punishing them if they broke them.

    But in the New Testament, in the fulfillment of the Law, Jesus asks us to go a step further. To change "inside". No longer is following the rules good enough. Now we must understand the principles behind them.

    Jesus makes it pretty dang clear that lust is a no-no. Period.

    "You have heard that it was said, 'You shall not commit adultery.'

    But I say to you, everyone who looks at a woman with lust has already committed adultery with her in his heart.
    Matthew 5:27-28

    This means that the man looking at you is sinning, and you are also sinning because you are purposely provoking him TO look at you.

    Seriously, you know this. I know you do. Sometimes I feel like I'm speaking directly with a demon and he's having a good time at my expense and gullibility...